Dada's little girl.

Life doesn't always come with manuals or warnings. And because of that you're often left to face shocking incidents. It makes you think so much. So many questions run in your head. One such thought in my head will always be 'only if i had known'. 

Had I known this would have been the last time I see my Dada. Had I only known that this would be the last photo I take with him. Had I known that he wouldn't be there when I return home the next time... Only if. I'd have done things a different way. I'd have hugged him tighter. I'd have told him how much I love him. I'd have given him a million kisses. I'd probably never have left his side. Only if..

But that's what life is all about I guess. It never warns you about what it's going to throw at you - whether it's a lemon or a bomb. It just throws it. And you get to know about it when it falls on you. Until then you'll never know if you've to make a lemonade or just be burst into little pieces. That's life. It sucks. But what sucks the most is us not giving our loved one's enough love. Us not telling them enough how much we love them. Us not spending enough time with them. And then later regretting all of this, and at a point when you know there's no going back. 

So don't wait till you fall into that regret. Do it right now. Do it every day. Do it as much as you can. Tell your loved one's how much they mean to you. Tell them how much you love them. Tell them how much you care for them. Tell them. Just do it. Because you may never get a chance to, later. 

Dada's little girl.

What is grief?

Recently I happened to see a video about grief. A clinical psychologist was explaining what exactly grief is and how it works, in a very interesting manner. She said that grief never becomes less or never really goes away, instead we start to create newer experiences and memories around it. It made so much sense. 

However what never makes sense is why it had to happen. As the date is nearing. That fateful day when we lost my Dada and the days before that. It all has been hitting us so much in the last few weeks. And each of us is trying to understand what this loss has done to us. Some have found answers while some are still searching for their answers. Only thing we've come to terms with together is how much we miss him. My father was hands down the best human being I've ever known in my life. He was the epitome of kindness. The most practical person I know. And the most loving father. The best son. An awesome husband. The most fun brother. Every role he's ever donned in his life, he's done it with perfection. He was a true example of a genuinely loving human being. 

So as we all prepare together for the date, the one year anniversary of him going away from us, we all realise that the grief is a real bitch. Grief can take you to the lowest point in life. But it also makes you realise how much a person made an impact in your life, an impact that nobody can ever replace. 

And most importantly how much we love this person. 

Dear Dada,

Not a day goes by without us thinking about you. There's so much to tell you Dada. I'll see you soon on the other side. I love you so much my Dada❤️